You seem to be trying to deal with your problem and that is a great sign that you will find a way to deal with whatever is making you feel this way.   We all have things which we need to change in order to be happier and healthier in our lives.  Many people in our family and among our friends, have serious illness and wish that they could just have a normal life.  There are so many pollutants and toxins in the world today, that as my friend said yesterday, sooner or later, we all have to deal with having some physical or emotional problems.  It takes courage to share your problems with others.  It gives people hope, when someone steps up and says, I have a problem, too.   Thank you for sharing, and please keep opening up to people.